Tuesday, September 2, 2014

All Life, No Matter How Small, is of Great Worth

Finally! I can at least kind of get my point across in Spanish how I want! It has been frustrating and obviously I am still far, far from perfect but I am finally competent. This week was by far better. Wednesday marked the day I have been away from home a month. Crazy right? Time has flown and I am ready to break out of ¨Spirit Prison¨ (what we Elders like to call our dear CCM). I finished the Book of Mormon Wednesday night and It made me feel so much better. I didn´t get some spectacular answer or even a real quiet answer either. However, I just feel great.

Friday was actually really funny. Remember my ¨Little Mexican Mommy¨ Fernando? Well we were coming back to our apartments after lunch, excited for gym and ready to get out of our shirts and ties, when we noticed all these little papers on every door. We read the one on ours and it told us our rooms had been fumigated and we couldn´t go in for another hour. Fernando was walking by right then and we asked him if we really had to wait an hour as we would miss gym and it had already been four hours since they had laid the chemicals. He looked at Elder Germann and I and after considering us for a moment smiled and said, ¨How fast are you?¨

About a minute later, Elder Germann, Fernando, and I had ties and towels tied around our faces and were in ready position. I unlocked the door, threw it open, and like a well-practiced SWAT team, we invaded our apartment. Fernando opened every door and window and Elder Germann and I scrambled to gather anything that qualified as gym-wear. Thirty seconds later we were all laying on the concrete outside our apartment panting and sweaty when Fernando laughed so hard and yelled in broken English, ¨I love you white american peoples! You are so crazy!¨

Saturday morning was such a spiritual experience. Hermana Nava knows how to speak in ways that bring such a spirit you can´t help but get goose bumps. We just watched a video about how we prepare our whole lives for this and then shared reasons we felt we were here in Spanish and she just bore the most amazing testimony I have ever heard. She is something special. Sunday Devotionals were also a highlight of the week. We watched an MTC missionary address by Elder Richard G. Scott and he sounded like a loving grandfather. Every other video has been kind of in your face about worthiness and being better than you are but his was just loving and accepting which was such a huge comfort.

We also watched a movie about the remarkable story of John Tanner and his example of absolute unselfishness. If you haven´t seen it I highly recommend it. It is well done, the music is FANTASTIC, and it is my new favorite church movie. The last movie we watched was the older movie of Jesus Christ and his Atonement and Sacrifice. I really, really  like it because it is something I have been studying this week deeply and it shows him right after death in heaven ministering to the Angels and embracing God. Never thought of that before.

Today we got to go to the Mexico City Temple and it was so beautiful and clean (haven´t seen much of that lately). We watched clips about families and the Book of Mormon in the visitors center then were given three hours to roam. They have a little store right next to the visitors center and I snuck over and got some cool stuff. 

On my way back to the temple I saw a little homeless man sitting in an alley. Wanting to practice Spanish and not wanting to just sit around for two hours on the lawn at the temple, I stopped and asked him if I could join him (With Elder Marshall). He was more than happy to talk to us because he told us not very many people are kind enough to talk. It was hard to say what I wanted to and hard to understand him but he taught me that the most unlikely of people can be the most wise and loving people you will encounter. You just have to love them enough to stop and talk.

I was eating a taco thing I had brought from this morning´s breakfast and offered him the last half. He graciously accepted with a hug and told me he had not eaten for a day. This whole time he had been scratching his stomach through his big, thick, dirty coat. He said a prayer to thank God for the food then I watched, dumbfounded, as he reached into his coat, pulled out a little pit bull puppy, and gave half the taco to the little dog that had just woken up. He hadn´t been scratching himself, but comforting his little friend. His only friend.

I asked him why he did that and he told me something I will never ever forget. Without taking his eyes off the little napping puppy, he said smiling, ¨This little one has lots of life ahead of him. I am almost through with mine.¨ He then looked at me and said, ¨All life, no matter how small, is of great worth. We must take care of and protect this life, even tthough it may seem small and of no value. That is what Jesus did.¨

I never asked his religion, I never even asked his name. Yet, that little old man taught me more in a different language than I have ever yet learned myself. Remember that. Each life is so special. Take care of people. Love others. Because ¨ALL life, no matter how small, is of great worth.¨

I love everyone so much. I say it every time but only because it is true. I am always thinking of you.

Love,

Elder Aidan Daley Rich


The night our Latinos left (can´t pronounce let alone spell their names).
 We communicate with lots of gestures and sign language.

Leaving the gates of the CCM or "the Spirit Prison" as the missionaries lovingly call it for the first time since arriving.  They took a "huge bus" to the Mexico City Temple Visitors Center. 

So excited to be leaving!


The concrete houses that spread endlessly for miles. 
(En route to the Mexico City Temple)


Tarp Shops - there are tons of little hole in the wall taco shops and fruit stands with tarps for roofs.

Elder Rich and Elder Germann in the Mexico City Temple Visitors Center

Elder Christensen and Elder Rich in the Mexico City Temple Visitors Center

My awesome district

Mexico City Temple


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

"Faith is a Hope in That Which is Not Seen Which is True"

This week was not overly exciting. Or at least when compared with the other few weeks. We are studying a lot more now that we are getting pretty close to leaving and it was hard for my ADD brain that loves to play to focus. I struggled a little this week and my faith kind of faltered. For whatever reason I was just struggling with the whole concept of the gospel and I feel like I waited until I came here to look for the truth rather than find it beforehand and allow it to drive me. Since then I have just read the Book of Mormon as much as possible. I had never really thought about it before but embarrassingly I have never read it through on my own and then prayed to know the truth. I realized that I have to ask for the truth before I can ask for anything else.

That is kind of how the whole week went. I learned little things here and there that really forced me to look at my beliefs and decide what I was ready to believe. It sounds kind of obvious in words, but what I didn´t realize is the first person I have to convert out here is myself. So that has been exactly what I have been working for this week. It put a very real and heavy strain on my testimony and I had a very hard couple of days but I am beginning to pick myself up out of it.

Probably the two most powerful lessons I learned this week are:  1. Our stories are not just for us, they are for others to learn and grow from also.  2. God loves us more than we can comprehend.

So every so often the people in my district have been sharing their ¨Why I am on a mission¨ stories and it has been a pretty cool tradition so far. Last night I was in the classroom with everyone with my nose buried in the scriptures when Elder Marshall asked me to share mine. I really didn´t want to because I felt it was personal and just for me. I was about to say no when I just figured, ¨why not¨.

I have told parts of my story to people and even had to share some of it in stake conference but there are lots of things I have kept to myself. No one has ever heard most of my story and I was planning on just giving the version everyone else has heard when I felt I needed to tell the whole thing. I just kept my eyes on the floor and told them every detail and what I felt and cried somewhere in there and just let all of my feelings out.

When I finished it was time to go back to our apartments so we prayed and then everyone did this huge group hug, which was weird and then went to their apartments. I was feeling stupid and embarrassed and vulnerable and I was crying and I just wanted to get out of there so I walked in front of the group just trying to get away. Elder Germann caught up with me and told me how much he loved me and we were both crying like babies and then everyone else caught up and then we were all crying. It was pretty much an all around bro love session. I was still feeling embarrassed about what I had shared when one of my absolute favorite elders, Elder Cluff pulled me aside and said, ¨I hope you know God gives us these things so we can share them. Never be shy about your story and sharing it with others.¨ I felt so much better after all of that and we all ended up staying up until around midnight talking.

When we finally went to bed, Elder Germann and I were saying companionship prayers. He has been very worried about this elder who has really been struggling with Spanish and he was praying for him when he choked up and could not go on. After a while he finished his prayer and then looked at me. He told me he had felt God´s love for this elder so powerfully and he could barely comprehend it. He told me how much we are cared for and I did not know what to say. We went to bed and I am pretty sure neither of us slept.

That is what I want. I want to KNOW he loves us. I want to KNOW he is there. I am sick of this ¨believing¨ bull crap and I just want to know. I am going to work hard and keep working until I know and I feel I can not be the missionary I need to be until I do. I can´t do it alone though. I need everyone´s help. There are so many people who read these emails that have amazing, powerful testimonies and I need that. I also need those who are in the same boat to work alongside me.

Now that all of that is said I fell I need to assure you I am fine. Yes it is a struggle, but is not that exactly what it is supposed to be? Did I not walk straight into this knowing how hard and testimony-challenging it would be? I knew exactly what I was doing and I did it anyway. It is hard and I won´t try to be tough and deny it, but it is also the first time in my life I have ever really challenged my beliefs so that they could transform into knowledge. It is the first time I have ever had so much purpose. I love everyone so much. The one thing I do know is that I am supposed to be here. I have learned so much and though I am far away, I have never been closer to all of you. May God bless all of you.

With absolutely sincere love,

Elder Aidan Daley Rich


Elder Rich and Elder Cluff in the CCM